The One That Got Away.. And Stayed Away

Okay so I'm here because I came to an "Ah- Ha!" moment while in my bed listening to an episode of one of my favorite shows, "The Read", on which they were discussing Beyonce's ex boyfriend who somehow found his way into a magazine and got some air time to discuss how basically had he not cheated on Beyonce years back, they would still be together. Irrelevant, he was. I know. But why was he irrelevant? I'll tell you why! BEYONCE IS BEYONCE ! She has a husband, BABY, and career that is screaming "I'm over it. And you are?!..." And I couldn't help but think to myself that this is a classic case of how the ones who do you wrong always regret the day they messed up. But this led me to another thought... "What if they don't?"

What happens when the person you want to regret blowing it, never does regret it?

I experienced a guy that reminds me of this question at hand. One who hurt me, blah blah blah. You ever end a relationship with someone that you thought you shared so much with and things end so off? Like no NOTHING? I had that happen. It was so "I don't really care WHAT you do. If you wanna go... bye!" kinda scenario, that it left me like "well dang". That type of ending where you get no closure, except the closure you invent in your mind, just so you can have a sense of peace to get over it? Yeah, that was me.

I analyzed all that I could about why I wasn't good enough for this or for that. Why I wasn't fought for and why was I so easy to let go. All that Mary J. Blige type stuff... and told myself lie after lie.

He gone regret this when I move on ..

But what if he doesn't? What would I really get out of someone missing me when at the same time, I'm trying to move on from them? (Am I making sense?) I know this is someone that even though I will always care for, I have no intention of dating again. So WHY would I want him to miss me? Why would I need him to feel some kind of way about me moving on? I know it sounds rewarding, but honestly guys, it's kind of like...silly.

Some people may never miss you. Some people may never fight for you to stay. Some people may never care to know how you've been... and if you were to move on, so what? They've moved on first! You have to muster up enough 'whatever' in yourself to come to the conclusion that I've come to and have shared with other friends of mine in similar situations:

Sometimes the best gift a person can give you is to NOT fight for you. To NOT miss you/ ask you to stay.

And I mean that with a sincere heart. Yes, it hurts to know that a feeling you had wasn't returned, but baby boo... it'll be alright! You have to be okay with knowing every story doesn't end with you moving on, getting married with a baby and being named Beyonce with an ex, who used to be relevant, now on page six of a gossip magazine, looking like "why?!". You have to move on whether the people you move on from see it or not. Do it for yourself.

Love :)

P.S. What you want always changes. Figure out what you NEED. Take time in your day to love you some you. LEARN about yourself. What you like, don't like..etc. Be comfortable alone. Never look for someone. Don't fill voids, loves.. unless of course you're filling it with God.. someone permanent, reliable, and who will fight for you something so TOUGH, you'd think you never turned away from Him to begin with. Learn to trust His plan and know that He lets things end the way they do for a reason! He ALWAYS has something better and you have to believe that. Kings and Queens, we deserve our matches! But before you search for yours make sure you are the mate you want to be as well. Don't rush anything. Don't chase after anyone except the most high. Everything good comes from Him. You can't find Good without God. He's the final answer. <3