Clarity

I have this inferiority complex...

Whether it be in the physical or mental aspect of a person, I can become easily intimidated. Quick to be analytical by comparing and contrasting why this person is superior to me in some way. Im sure this is something that we have all struggled with, but for me, it was always a flaw that I couldn't quite shake.

I know that I'm a pretty decent young lady. I have a lot going for myself and I'd like to think I have qualities in myself that set me apart from the crowd. But it's something about a person,female, that is too much like me that gets me a bit unsettled. I feel as though my value decreases in some way. I fear being unoriginal.

At four this morning, I woke up and couldn't get a certain situation out of my head. I had difficulty shaking my feelings and I was becoming so frustrated about it. After about 10 minutes of struggling with my own internal "thing"..

I realized people are just people. Just. Like. Me.

And all my life, I put any type of "competition" on this non existent pedestal. There was never a need for me to try and compete with anyone else. I am who I am for a reason and I am my own competition. The more I focused on other's lives, the less of me I became. I was making my own fear reality.

Crazy how we do so much to avoid a person getting in our way... when we are our own stumbling blocks. I just had to share that with you all. ( Im at work, typing from my phone lol)

Smooches folk!!!